change is like...

change is like a dirty diaper. it's stinky, overwhelming, sometimes nauseating, and downright intrusive. i haven't changed many diapers in my life, maybe one or two, but i distinctly remember every detail about them, which is disturbing if i do say so myself... =o) but there is something about change that is rather cleansing (like putting on a new diaper, not that i wear them still...anyway.) my husband and i are facing change. it's uncomfortable, but i think that that is expected. i don't know about you, but once something happens in my life, i am pretty content with staying there for a long long while. i like being nestled up in that tight little comfort zone i have, and once i step out of that, it's cold... and awkward. this change that is occurring in our lives right now is just that, cold and awkward. that's certainly not a bad thing to face, it just uncomfortable.
God has been speaking to me a lot lately about life decisions and changes that are taking place. i have always been a "what if" thinker, and these what ifs have been popping up more than usual these days. it can make a girl go crazy i tell you. i am trying to not let those what ifs get in the way of God's peace and hope that he is constantly giving me. what could be more comfortable than to know that i am going to be taken care of, and i don't have to what if it all the time? nothing...
i have obviously been through change before and have experienced some of what i am experiencing now. i always know that in the end of this changing cycle everything works out so well, it's just that transitioning point that i don't like very much. but, like a dirty diaper, life needs to be a changed at times and given a new layer.
ahh.. now that's refreshing. =o)

"the secret"

so there's a new fad in town. it's called "the secret." i haven't watched the dvd, but i have heard alot about it. it's everywhere. on the internet, on popular secular television programs, like oprah and ellen (not too surprising actually), at my work, in the lives of my extended family, and in my dreams. it's like i am being totally exposed to this secret. hmm...some secret. i guess it's this thought that if you constantly think it, it will happen, no matter if it's bad or good. so why hasn't anyone flown, or ruled the world with such great power and authority, besides satan? i know it's a crock, but it's insane how so many people believe it. why would you want to depend on yourself for every single thing, and be responsible for everything that happens or doesn't happen to you? how stressful it would be to think it would be your fault. your life depends on your thoughts. think positive and your dreams will come true. that sounds like a big headache to me. i guess it's pretty easy to fall into this mind set. we're humans. we're down right selfish and satan knows that he can totally mess with that. whatever it takes to get your mind off of what really matters, which is Jesus, he will. he has with people that i know. i guess i should look at this as an opportunity. there is definitely some significance to this circumstance, and i am truely ready for it.